WEEEEEEE MOVIE. We ate Sushi Express (again) and watched movie, at Seletar Mall.
We were supposed to be like, meeting at 10 but you, woke up at 10. I thought it was like, karma cos I like always late for our dates. HAHAS.
But recently I have been thinking, and the thoughts in my head aren't exactly, well positive. I realised I have always been pessimistic, and it seems like as though its to prepare myself for worst case scenarios. So that when bad things happen, it wont come off as too much of a shock and I can handle it with more, grace and dignity. Im pretty prideful. As you can tell.
Y'know cos you're like only coming out on weekends I feel like Im bothering you. Idk that feeling is kinda strong.. Cos you have friends to go out with, game with, and of course your gramps. In fact stronger after what has happened today it feels like as though going out every week is too much of a sacrifice? Yeah I admit even I feel burdened. So I guess its even worse for you. Like the only time I will enjoy myself is when Im with you and when Im not and I think about like, our relationship, it really didnt seem that great at all.
Im sorry for having these thoughts and going home right after the movie cos I needed time to sort myself out. (but hahas great movie) I cant even look at you properly today, cos I am having these dark thoughts. If I can sort these out myself, then yeah I wont tell you all these. But if I can't, I don't know if I can or not bring myself to say this to you. Im scared of what will happenen if I do. Really.
When am I even gonna show you this, damned, blog.
But after we text again everything seems to be.. back to normal. Sighs. Idk man. Maybe its just another of my moodswings.