But yeah the thing is, Idk I think its not the first few times I have been thinking about breakup because I cant see a future, its just so, foggy. Not bleak but foggy. Its hard though, to think about breakup when I want to see you on a weekly basis. But maybe cos when I see you the rational and logical part of me just disappears and when I don't it surfaces too easily.. I.. Wanted to give you the link to this blog on anniversary. The plan was to add you in then we edit this blog together. But you probably wouldnt. Many at times it feels like a one-sided relationship.. And.. Thats why I so sian to post after that incident cos this blog keeps reminding me of it. I can't shake off that feeling. But yeah, figured I still should try. Maybe its cos its just me being a typical demanding girlfriend.
But yeah think its time to face the fact that I am just.. Can't do this any longer. Not sure if things will happen the way I planned in my head, and I am not sure if I want it to unfold the way it unfolds in my head.
I remembered you once said you wouldn't blame me for breaking up with you, but I hope you do. Blame me I mean. But yeah promise me you wouldn't just cut off contact with me for the rest of your life. I seriously feel that we are more of best friends than a couple. Can and always will be your bestest friend.
