又是我家

Well, you had to come babysit the paika on your off-day. Feeling like a burden. Im sorry if I keep disturbing you these days kay, just damn bored at home. Will try to maintain HAHA. Not damn bored lurh but got time to text you. Not like during school blehhh. But yeah hahas. And Im so sorry we cant go out and do some legit fun stuff. Miss those trekking times actually. Alright I shall not emo. HAHA. today is the last day of 2015 YAYYYYYYYY 2016 gonna be amazing, and better :))

我家

First visit?
hahahaha
its so funny.
But thanks for coming.
Actually no la, more like thanks for the damn touching notebook letter. Which you (okay me too) prolly forget aldr. Nvrm can go back flip. HAHA.
but yeap cos of my freaking knee operation i cant go out anywhere. You have to come and visit me ):
xiaosad.
We could have went out to do something legit sighs.
What to do.
I thank you for having you too. <3

Sometimes, you have to believe in magic.

So, it was 3am this morning when I called you cos I was freaking out for no damn reason. HAHAs. Sighs. And just nice you were on your way home from your friend's place after a drinking sesh. Pfffft. So yeah. HAHA. Just a very nice 奇妙 feeling.

SCGP

YAYYYYY.
FINALLY SEEING YOU IN THE HANDSHOME NO.1 UNIFORM. HAHAHA.
Mmmmm, and finally posted on insta cos. too shuai aldr.
Did a card for you too, which you almost teared(你说的)
So you're curious why I remember those random stuffs like what you said about song lyrics right. HAHA. Legitly, somehow lorh. Or maybe cos I have to blog everytime I see you so I remember more clearly? Bleh. Anyways. 10months in ns aldr. Its sucha weird feeling. I together with you throughout this whole NS period worhhhh. HAHA.
It hasnt been easy when I was busy and very sad about my ACL but. YAY. WE GREW TO BE STRONGER NAO. HAHA.
I think I am becoming like the typical annoying girlfriend omg. shit.
hahahaha.
but nah
不会的
mmmm. then the next day after your parade I was in NUS so, 一起回家 hehe.
then meet again on saturday. LOLOL GETTING CLINGY SIGHS.
Mmmmm, went nex today and somehow ended up watching Star wars. Which I froze to death and you were unexpectedly not so cold?
mmmm. then you were sposed to go ahma hse. I was sposed to go home and bathe and meet my friends. But... decided to go eat dinner. HAHAHAH. CRAPS.
but yeah, ohwells.
then we nua at your busstop for a long long time HAHAs.
Yeappppp. Thats it. <3

Ci Yuan CC

Okay today is very nua. All we did was go Ciyuan explore, then walk walk hougang 1. then 回家咯
hahahaha, end of story. hahahaha. oh, i passed the notebook back tu you.

More tembu

Mmmm. Fat boys > Tembu > Home. Its more of helping me move my things. HAHAHAHA. Thankyouuuu. 越来越lazy to update this blog actually. HAHAHA.
Anyways.
so.
Well its the end of our hectic periods so maybe its time we can finally date normally already? HAHAHA. You and your crazy bridging & me and my finals. HAHAs. sighs? 😅

Our times

Some 初恋 movie we watched together. Idk after the movie you asked me what are my thoughts. Well. Uhm. idk. But a thought popped up. Which girl in your life did you think of when you watch that movie? Was it me? Hahaha but i didnt ask la. my toothache too painful idk if anything would register. 😂 But yay movie.

Tembu

Well, we kinda decided to, come to tembu. 

Idk why you were so against coming. 

You didnt wanna leave you noob. 

We went vivo for dinner , 

wanted to watch movie but. 

But, 

no more seats. 

So yeah tembu lorh. 

So you came and helped me change bedsheet. 

And helped me with photoshop. 

& for the rest of the time its just nua-ing. 

HAHA. 

Sighs. 

Wishing everyday is like this. 

But well now that I am a paika.. Irdk what else we can do already. HAHAHA

Such ugly shots but. Ohwells. 

NS-UNI kinda sucks.

Hellooo.
Well Idk,
its one of the weekends that I need you more than ever.
And you are not here.
Idk sometimes I feel like you are not putting enough effort.
I don't know if its me expecting too much from you, or what.
Its like Idk.
Youre in the army and I can only see you at most once a week. Yeah not probs with that.
But there are times I wished I could call you instead of well, anyone else in tembu.
Remember I told you about this person who accompany me the whole of friday, cos I went to 2 different clinics. He accompanied me for the whole day, and did nothing productive, when its like hell week in school. And I was there trying not to be too close to him, trying to walk without support, trying to sleep without leaning towards him at all. I feel damn bad you know. But I cant say no I'll go to see the doctor myself cos well. I can barely walk properly on my own. I need someone to take care of me and that person is not you. How absurd.
I know telling you all these wont help the situation at all so yeah, thats why I havent said anything. Its like I don't see effort on your side sometimes and it feels fucking weird.
Like I am the stupid girl in those dramas who the guy doesnt care about.
Sometimes I cant tell anymore, if you really care or not.
I mean, how can you be so indifferent when you know I am injured?
When I knew when you had guard duty on sunday I am just like, what the hell? I did say you can come to tembu, right? Its not that I didnt. Well all that I did not do is to probe further and schedule you a timing for you to come over cos well. I know you have no intentions to.
I dont know if I am the selfish one or are you the selfish one cos if you really bothered, you would have came by, no matter what. You know you dont really have an excuse for that.
I thought about it.
If you were injured, and in a hostel, without your family, I would change whatever I had away and yeah. Drop by to see how bad is it. But no. You did nothing. You went ahead with your whatever thing you had on friday night, and replied like so fucking slow, then replied me on Saturday fucking afternoon. Dyou know how absurd it felt. It felt like I was secondary - no make it tertiary.
But no I cant tell you all these,
why cos you have a 24hour guard duty the following day I dont want you to think too much and reflect about what a bad boyfriend you are while going through that hellish shit.
But yeah.
There never seem to be a right time I can tell you all these.
I hope we are still alright when that time comes.
I know you probably dont mean it,
but i cant help it but blame you for this.

After awhile I feel nothing anymore, like. I think its just me feeling upset and yeah your support wasn't really there. But can't really blame you also. Yeah so I texted you and told you a bit of stuff and I was afraid that we'd break up. I was afraid that at that point in time I would actually say that I want a break up. But I am so so glad I didnt. It was a stupid mistake on my side.

The Deep

The fish that always swim around as a couple. Naw how sweet. hahahaha.
YAY thanks for going to this exhibition with me.
Finally a more legit date?
Sorry for being so busy all the time I hate myself for being so busy also sighs.
Finals is coming even lesser time for you.
Or maybe more cos I need chill time and yeaps.
Cant really be bothered with this nonsense exams and stuff.
Oh,
fianlly brought the box of foodies for you. Just a bunch of energy bars and indo mee. haha
I keep forgetting to bring.
Life seems tough for you in bridging :/

Chill sat

I felt soooo bad ):
Hahaha.
I was kinda annoyed w you idk maybe the stress. but after you passed me the notebook Im just like. Ohgod I feel so bad. I mean yeah I have been meeting new guys who are wayyyyy more mature and gentlemanly. But I'd rather wait for you to become like that. 🐣 Do I get the best girlfriend award already.
I admit la NS - UNI not that easy but hey. We're alright rightt. Distance gives us a reason to love harder. Although I really wanna go on full-day dates with you I think its gonn be harddd. Sighs :/ After my finals kayy. Ven shall plan some extraordinary stuff. HAHA. 🙆🙆

SWIM > WALK

Swim > Supper
That was the initial plan.
But.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Ven says dont feel like suppering so we walked to Jalan kayu and just took bus home. But yay chill saturday hehe.

The Martian

Soooo, we went to tampines cos someone told me there is 365 days there HMMMPH.
Anyways,
so we went to tampines to watch martian. AHAHA.
Went all the way there just to watch a movie
But yeaps just a simple date and yeah.
Then we went to eat prata at hougang weeeee.
ahahah.
But you were feeling sick.
Then after the prata you okay already wtf.
you this.
zzzzz.
ohwelllls.
没事就好
omg we going halloween night this week though
OHMYGAHHHHH HEHEHE.

Maze Runner: Scorch Trials

Actually...
I wanna watch movie cos
I kinda miss your smell.
HAHAHAHA
Im so sorry I am so busy these days.
Actually not very busy I just suck at time management. ):
Will make it a point to see you longer next time kay 

& yeah cos my aunt told me some stuff like must pei ahma more she really old already i was feeling like shit. 

so i called you 

Though you were of little help over the phone.. 

After that you needed to zao then you came back. 

and through text sent me lots of nonsense. 

hahaha 

I guess we just dk how to express ourselves as well as others but 

it doesnt matter. 

Cos at that point in time i felt loved. 

You probably wont remember & i probably wont too but

<3

Jurong East

So...
Cos i didnt go home this weekend and me being a very busy girl.
HAHAH.
We had to meet at jurong east
So yeah went to makan at this grid grid place.
Quite interesting la HAHAHA.
They use waffles as their burger bread and all.
Okayy..
Then we sit there chill for awhile.
then went to emart to get some stuff.
Then back to je to buy some stuff.
HAIYO.
hahahah.
i dont even know but this blog turning into some..
idk weird cos like no emotions in here..
uhm uhm.
OH.
you asked for a hug when we say bye bye at the mrt station.
My first reaction was like,
why you suddenly want a hug.
but yeah of course i will give you a hug.
As many as you want kayy.
HAHAS.
Cya soooooon.

Comex.

Okay we went all the way to suntec and uhh
for the IT fair.
I kinda dragged you there but okay.
HAHA
It was pointless going there except we found this damn interesting stationery shop
Which i bought the lavender to grow muahaha.
Then
went to bugis for dinner..
Then walk to Little India then..
I went to punggol to get the stuff you printed but forgot to bring for me. m
today wasnt that productive either but ohwells,
going out with you never was.
You not value-adding to my life sia omg. Hahaha but i kinda need that. A break from all the nonsense in uni.
and when you talked about faraday and carmen breaking up...
it was pretty awkward cos like we are kinda similar?
i mean scs and uni..
Somemore you ask if i'll be sad if we break up.
Then you ask if we should pause this relationship.
It was scary.
Can you dont ask these stuff.
irdk if you wanna break up or youre just kidding.

Our relationship.

Some photo you sent me hahahas

Novena

So we met at AMK todayyyyyy. Then makan yong tau foo and went to walk walk around aimlessly for a looong time. You declared your love for creampuffs too. Then went to Novena and walked walked and then went to Udders. WEEEEEE. Another simple day with you doing nothing but. 🙆🙆🙆🙆
Did you kiss me today. HAHAHA.
While we were waiting for train.
I kinda leaned in your shoulder then you kissed my top left forehead. IDK IF YOU DID. HAHAHAS.

Change is hard.

Hullo
Didnt post last week cos i didnt have much recollection of what happened. HAHA.
Cos i was sick
& this week you had a nights out.
Supposedly long enough to meet me but.
Shit happened.
So ohkay lorh.
Sadded. Though I got other activities also but still.
MEH.
Ohgay lorh.
Then this week gonna be damn hard to meet also.
I admit its hard sia.
Like so difficult to meet and all.
But it takes effort from both sides so.
Imma do mai best too.
I've been talking to some people during HTHT then like
I heard so many sad stories idk how to feel.
Like they so heartbroken
Then i will think.
Will I be that sad?
How about you?
Y'know like we not so lovey dovey like other couples.
Sometimes i doubt if what we have is real.
But yeah all i need to do is remember how happy i feel when i am with you.
AWWWW.
hahahs, love you
cya tmr

If I had to say what do you mean to me,

I wouldnt say everything.
Cos you are not.
We both have other commitments.
Family, friends, ns, uni, all those bullshit.
But you will always be my
comfort zone.

YAY BDAY PRESSIE.
Met at jurong point today before you book in hahahas, thankssssss. I know youre tired love you.

We went to eat at the Msian street or sth. i forgot the name. And then went to walk walk for quite a bit. Your bag was huge and burdensome Im so sorry for making you walk. Then went to eat some taiwan desert so that you can pass me the gift. Tried to read the card in front of you but gave up. Too awkz.

Hmmm you got me this laptop case, and this notebook journal thingy, and earplugs HAHAHA. Thanksssssss.

Aiyo I write so many things in the journal idk what to type here anymore. But omg I so scared your idea of journal is like recording where we go what we do sia. Omg then my blog how. HAHAHA.

I shall give you this link during our first year. ITS A FIRST YEAR + VDAY GIFT YAY. The physical gift.. Ohgod can I dont get. So lame ley. HAHAHA.

CHILLING IN THE WATER

So, we went allll the way to jurong today yay. HAHAs.
We went Jurong Point and explored the streets. Wao its quite amazing thanks for bringing me thr. We ate then went over to Jurong east swimming complex but like the wave pool was closed. & we kinda just lepak and chill at the competition pool until 6pm, talking about anything and everything.
Some awkward as fuck topics, and some normal everyday stories. I dont really remember but yeah.
Then walked to jurong east for like dinner then back home again.
Another simple day date w you.
Just that we went all the way to the west..
There are some things you said that were like, I dont know what to make out of it.

You said the role I played isnt like a girlfriend, and can be replaced with any other friends. I dont know what to make out of it. There are other stuff that you said but this is one that struck me like on the bus journey home. We talked about quite a bit like the what will happen if we happen to break up. Yeah stuff like that.

Oh and you were talking about how you had like a talk on how guys should treat girls and how like you shouldnt pamper a girl and all, forever giving in to her cos it'll become 理所当然. And how the guy in your section think is 2 faced when it comes to girlfriend. HAHAHA.
I realised youre such a shitty boyfriend.
But I still love you anyways.
Sigh.
HAHAHAHA.

& i totally forgot about the sex convo we had 2 weeks ago. until you reminded me

HAHAHA

felt weird in the pool for awhile cos of that but OHKAY. 

ANYWAYS. 

School really starting next week ):
& you got field camp next week ):
Aiyo.
:/

Nex again again.

You know its when you asked if you can read my blog then I realised
I DIDNT BLOG THIS WEEKEND HAHAHA.
So uhm, managed to squeeze out a bit of time for us
and we went to nex for monster curry (like finally)

Yeah then walk walk around for a bit
went to explore around nex a little but went back after awhile cos.
too hot.
You were wearing long pants.

Then went back to hougang to sit at the busstop to chill lorh.
& talk cock lorh.
HAHAs.
Well uhm.
yeah thats it
That was sunday.

then at night we had this weird convo about sex.
I admit you did catch me off guard.
You're surprising me a lot lately,
asking for my blog even neh 吃了豹子胆
but yeah there are some things i wanna tell you as well just dk how or when to say so.
The blog is a great idea.
www.nizhendebuliaojiewo.blogspot.com HAHAHHA
by the time you see this..
Time for the second gun?
第二枪 HAHAHA.

JAJANGMYEON

Ohkay so...
We met after you went to buy your 一见钟情 bag (waaaa love at first sight damn no feel, must say in Chinese hahaha) and after my driving.
Anddd
We went to this authentic korean restaurant Tae Woo to try the black bean sauce noodle. 真的真的好好吃哦~~
Then we just stroll around The Central for awhile.
OHHH we went to this shop called Naise. REALLY BUAY PAI HAHAHA
Got the my mother say my father say books. (hopefully still remember whats that)
Then we grabbed some other food and then we headed to Farrer Park for ANTMAN.
Freaking cold sia omg.
no joke.
Then stroll around a bit, took 147 back to hougang to makanz. hehes.
Then 回家.
mmmm, just another of those dates lorh. HAHAs.
Sighhhhhs uni starting :/

Ohmy.

So yesterday, you were at outram w your bunkmates from BMT then I was at camp day 3, which I was leaving from Sentosa. HAHAs, and so you came over to vivo to wait for me. I really quite touched sia hahaha, I mean even if it was cause you were bored at home I still am touched. I know you waited for quite long. I love you la. So you saw my sunburnt face, then we got meesua and went upstairs to eat with sentosa view. Damn nice sia that place. HAHAAs. But I am too tired oppps. Ohhh you were combing out my hair from my face when I was like lying down against my knee and your knee. Its like one of the best feelings on earth I swear.
Then I am seeing you again later, before you go to your new home for the next 1.5 years. HAHAs

Then we met at nex today. Just walking around doing nothing much. And yeah. HAHAS. Then went to take 101 to Kovan to satisfy my beancurd craving. Tau hueyyyy. Then walked over to take 62, we stopped like at the stop between your house and my house. Then suddenly your family de car just stop and ask if you wanna go home. like whut. I was so shocked it was so awkz but ohmygod. 😅
So yeah it was just so awkz I dont even know what to do or say or idk. I just ohmytian. HAHAS. so awkward so awkward so awkwardddd.

Nex again

HIII.
SO UH.
WE MEET AGAIN.
HAHAHA.
Went to Nex for Pastamania Yay.
& Bingsuuuuuu.
Red bean bingsu was so niceeeee. HAHAHAS.
Ohgay la we just meet cos.
I wanna see you
(& you wanna see me, righttttt?)
HAHAHS. So yeah. despite being damn tired. We still met. 

Uhhh yeah. HAHAHA. then stay at busstop missed a few 62 and yeah. Thats it. HAHAHAS.



OH OH OH. We both wore monkey tee today. LOL.

Ubin

So we spent a day at ubin.

HEHEHE. 

Despite you just POP-ed. 

But still pei me come this so damn dangerous island. 

So we were trekking and this is like the path we saw for a few hours. 

And that super tall huge ass treeeeee. 

 So yeah we walk walk talk cock and weee, finally reached Chek Jawa.
Then there is this uhh, house looking thing, which links to this pretty placeeee.

 And yeah selfies. HAHAHS

& you decided to take the photo cos my angle and hand too short but. OHH MY NONEXISTENT EYES. 

Tried to open my eyes here. HAHAHA

But i think this is the best shot? Like at this place. HAHAHAHA.
But cant really see you ohmanz. 

Hi.

SUCHA NICE PHOTO. 

I just made you a model with my tumblr.

I think we are both photogenic from the back.

CUTE CRABS. Oh we encountered bees here. Ohkay I think its the same bee but. WTF WTF WTF. Sorry I cant stay calm when it comes to bees manz. HAHAHAs. 

Then up the tower thingy

which we took many joke panorama shots

staircase selfie

I will miss your botak ):

MANDATORY SHOT KILLED BY BOAR AND BICYCLE. 

But its mother and child so cute hehehe.

AWWWWW.

 Ohhhhh, and we stumbled upon this cyclist who langa tree accident. Like she didnt follow the one way route but travelled the opposite direction, so we went downhill and lost control and langa tree and it was. Gory. like legit blood and orhceh at the eye and all. wtf sia quite traumatizing.
THENNNN,
you had this near death experience like.
We hear this tree branch crack sound.
Then suddenly this huge thick branch just dropped behind you.
Like you were nearer to it la like wtf.
WTF WTF WTF.
YOU ALMOST DIED.
I was so shocked i just straight away hold your hand and continue walking lolol.
JI SCARY.
you hear the sound but stood there sia. JUST STAND THERE.
OHMYTIAN
JIANG SCARY.
WABIANG.
So yeah
but after that we stumbled upon a monkey
採-ing rambutan.
But like we keep looking for the monkey so we didnt realise it was collecting the fruits.
HAHAHA.
So by the time we look down we were surrounded by rambutans. HAHAHA
BUT OHWELLS. The near death experience like not scary enough uh, Rambutans raining also never realise wth.
BUT YEAH.
so we went back to mainland safely.

'Idk what to pose'
'Act like a kid'

MADE YOU A MODEL AGAIN.

So yeah we went Ubin without heading to the butterfly hill. 

But aiya singapore got so many butterfly gardens one fine day we go tgt kay. 

HAHAHAs. Need to overcome my fear. 

Anyways so we left Ubin, 

and lepaked for a bit before we decided to head for SAKAE BUFFET. 

which wasn't as shiok as expected but ohwells. 

SALMON SASHIMI HEHEHEHEHE. 

and that stupid bean thingy which was so pervertic. 

Semo sai sia look like bra. then squeeze out like cleavage. HAHAHAHA. 

TSKKK. 

Yeah so we just take 72 home after chilling there awhile 

And sat at my place de chair there for awhile and yeappppps. 

Ohkay not awhile but yeah. Just stay there talk, and you missing many busses and all and yeahhh. 

We talked about some ftf (face to face) stuff we avoided online, like i knew more about your past and you know more about mine also la. It feels nice you know, to have you telling all those stuff and yeah, xie xie ni for that. But when i wanna say sth you like dunwan to hear so i just shut up. HAHA. So I just told you briefly anywaysssss. 

Still sorry that i have camp this week 我也不想的 

:/ 

but yeahhh. 

Thank you for today.  ♥ ♥ ♥

POP LO

Pardon my awkward hand.
Lemme retell this story of how I in the end got go your POP.
So, I asked you if I should go for your POP last week anddd, you said nope. So I wasnt gonna go. BUT. In the end Roy asked me to go HENCE, I went. HAHAHAHAS. so uhm yeah.
So I went and I was half looking for you half helping jiayi socialising.
Then I was taking photo for her then, suddenly I look up and you're there looking at me HAHAHA. How nice that feeling. I just smile instantly sia. Like eeeeee happy. I dont think you remember cos you so cui but. HAHAHA. Then yeah we had a small little exchange but ohwells. It was uhm. Idk cos your parents there and everyone is there I abit awkz im sorry. HAHAS. But ohwells. I was really proud of you (and the rest) lorhh, like doing the parade despite the 24++km and the stupidddd rain. It was worth it. Got the OMG MY BOY MADE IT feel. And yeah I realised how not-easy NS is so. HAHAHA. I will shower you w more care and love kay. Sorry for making you so tired every weekend but. Irdk what else can we do tgt that isnt tiring, cos even a simple movie > dinner is so damn tiring. 😂😂🙆🙆

Seletar Mall

Our fav movies mall.
HAHA.
Went to seletar to watch Minions & nakan dinz on a friday night cos you book out early. HAHA. Nah not really. Cos I got sleepover that night and you needed to go visit both your popo and ahma. So yeah. Then we went to Han's and makan dinz. Which was well not bad. Then figured out how to reach the busstop to take 85 for me to go yishun, and you to go home. Yeah. It was a nice date cos of the convo and yeah. We're really getting comfy w each other already. I appreciate you telling me your heartfelt stuff and yeah really. I mean it.
I guess thats why the next day, after much effort, I plucked out the courage to tell you the Im scared for Uni thing. I couldnt figure it out myself since its like our problem not just my problem and I think its only fair you know so we can try to make it through together. So yeah. I dont know since when its no longer a me, but a we thing. It was so hard sia I type out, backspace, type, stare at it for awhile, backspace, type again then send before I can stop myself. Like for quite a few lines in that convo. I was crying while typing sia I dont even know why the tears fell out  Its just telling you Im scared but LOL i was tearing as I type. Idk if you rmb but HAHAHAs. Actually idk if i'll rmb after a long time also. Yeah it was reassuring and kinda confirmed that what we had is real. It felt really, really, blissful. ❤ And we legit fell asleep while texting. Like you didnt reply for like 30sec I just put my phone down and drifted off. That dont wanna say goodnight kind of convo cos you scared I anyhow think and I also scared you anyhow think. HAHAHA. That was last night
& we're talking about our thought process before we get tgt? Even the old love lives and stuff. Like wows. No ordinary couple manz. Wts which couple actually talk about this. Isnt it like taboo topics for couples? But dayummmn Im curious. Your fault la. HAHAHAHA.

Tampines > ECP

LOL last night I too tired to type anything out so. Anyways. Headed to Tampines for Jurrasic World. Which isnt very nice frankly speaking. But the time in Tampines was kinda hellish. Ohkay you came to hougang, then I misunderstood your words and took 72 first. which well, you were behind. HAHAHA. so i saw you on bus and left and yeah, left my wallet behind. So we took the next 72 and headed to Tampines, then got back my wallet after a drama of 'you cant keep 2 ez-link cards its a crime' cos of arif. LOL damn sian. then we went ahead to watch movie, which we were atm hunting before the movie, then went to eat lunch at LJS. Atm hunting was so annoying. I sian diao aldr but idk is you damn got patience or what or just trying to keep it in. (confirm trying to reel it in HAHAHA) But yeah, in the end we found the atm after wandering about for a bit. So yeah uhmz. Then after movie go eat Mac minions special. Banana pie (Goreng Pisang) & Chocolate banana icecream. Which was a huge ass disappointment. Then headed down to ECP to meet class. Which we had to walk like. so fucking far. But yeah it was ohkay. After meet class we pretty much, left each other alone aldr so. HAHAS. Except people asking about my love life and asking if we planned our outfit tgt. #firstunplannedcoupleoutfit? #FUCO Actually I dont think its first time but. Yeah. HAHA. You wore a pink polo tee and I wore a pink shirt dress. shit? So disgusting LOL. We just got judged damn it. Mmmm so from there no need to talk about it much la horh. HAHAS.
So yeahhhh.
Thats it.

Ohkay actually no.

Is it possible to feel insecure with you in the army. Cos Idk sometimes I do feel that way. Cos yeah recently jiayi going through breakup it hurts me as well and I think thats when my insecurities spike. Thats why I went for a walk last night, even though I damn shag aldr. Trying to sort myself out a bit. Cos at first when I asked if I going for your POP, you said up to me initially, then after that you say dont go uh. I probed abit but you didnt relent so Im guessing you really dont want me to so yeah just dont go lorh. Hahahas thats the difference between me and jiayi i guess. She'll probe until you give her a good reason why she shouldnt go. Oh god I feel like such a good understanding girlf. Yeah I can respect that but hey, I wanted to be there for you, celebrate the moment with you. But you know I wouldnt be able to tell that to you. HAHAHAS. So I just respect your decision lorh. Cos yeah its me. HAHAHA. You have no idea what Jia Yi made me feel about this not going for your POP thing. All the HUH WHY. And bullshit insecurity theories. Even my mom. But you know whats scarier? That insurmountable faith I have in you. Damnnnn so mushy. HAHAHAS. 

Heyyyy

Didnt meet you this weekend cos damn it you were sick. :/ And so I stayed at home and read this book called One morning one moment. Its like about this guy who just suddenly drop dead and it impacted some people's lives. All the things they wished they said and did when he was alive. It made me feel so glad that people around me are alive. Like especially my family, friends and you. I am just so so so glad to have you in my life, not expressive enough to tell you directly but I'll learn to be, expressive. I dont know, even though we dont know each other that long, I like how comfortable we are around each other. When I still have to really think of what to say to friends I have known for forever. I like your 坦诚-ness. Like if you dont like it, you dont hide it. For some things at least, though other stuff I still have to see and guess. HAHAHAS  but yeah just. & some stuff I have to hint a bit before you say what you really thinking about. Like when it comes to things you feel uncomfy about our relationship and stuff. But eventually you still say la HAHAS. 

'Holding hands is a promise to one another that, for just a moment, the two of you don't have to face the world alone.'
Enough said la horh?

Bloop.

We went swimming today~
First swim together,
is it counted hmmmz,
technically the Adcove, idk hahahs
Even though like it was kinda nice to sleep in today, we both woke up HAHAS
It started drizzling when I left house sia tsk,
so yeah we went Anchorvale today
YAYYYY.
Uhm, stayed in the indoor pool and swam like, 6 laps??
Cos the people there learning how to swim were swimming the width of the pool.
TSK.
But hahahaha,
Really go there zim zui only.
Then off to the Jacuzzi pool and lepak for like another hour?
Which I was playing by myself very well with the Jacuzzi thing. hahaha.
I know you were judging me but,
whatevs.
Just great at self-entertaining hahas.
then we shower then walk to Compass Point, braving the rain hahas.
But dude you were so cold the whole day today ehh, or did i become warm, why you so cold sia omg. Ji unhealthy!
Just another one of the dates which I absolutely love, hehehe.
Just doing nothing wasting time walking around talking and yeah.
So we ate at Compass then walked around for a bit then homed.
See you next week worm.

HAHAHAS

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do,
like I always do.

You wonder why we so weird
so unlike other couples.
HAHAHAS
Screw them I like how we match. 

Kovan

 

Decided that this blog has too little photos. HAHAS

Your face when I wanted to snapchat.

hahahas,

not really the typical go everywhr also must update and take pic girl.

Is you say then I will take one ehh, dude.

Not those type who will actually take and take and take lol.  

So yeah we went to kovan and walked around. uhhhh, yeah.

Wanted to try some cafes there but in the end never uhh, 

HAHAHAS.

Since when things go as planned, 

Nah since when do we have a plan. 

Aries.

HAHAHAS.

Anyways happy back from field camp.

Dude you really dk how to talk I always do the talking will tired one you know.

Meh,

couldn't go swim this week im so sorry girl probs.

Next week kayz.

Hehes. <3

Plaza Sing

Went to eat Justacia at Plaza Sing today~  Was supposed to wake up at 7 and go for a swim today & guess what. We both can't wake up. HAHA. So decided to meet at hougang and then last min decided to eat Justacia at PS. Then we just talk cock walk walk around PS and then homed. Omgg it was so tiring though we didnt do anything. 😂 And you going field camp this week, it sounded really scary hahas, but you'll pull through, probably will break down too but you'll pull through. I'll text you before you face the hell HAHAS. Mental note or else cos I blog aldr it feels like I said it already. Sighs one week without communicating with you this is gonna be, horrible. :/

Pitch Perf 2

Qi za bwae za movie again. Nah not that early today but yeahs. HAHAS. We just.. went for movie then xingwang for lunch then headed home already, another normal date but another good day with you. 🙆 Oh we walked from farmway(was it? I think) to compass point through the blocks WAO SO IMPRESSIVE. HAHAS. Funz funz. 🙆🙆🙆
Sorry if Im like ranting about Uni stuff already cos Im quite stressed from all the hall signing up and choices I haveto make and all. Sighs I wished we can go uni tgt ): Army so burdenz. But weee. Imma go for your POP alright. Even if you dont want me to HAHAS. Since the class know about us (oh you texted me that faraday say the whole class know aldr like just now) I can go with Carmen~~ HAHAS.

My house.

We need a good place to lepak manz. Like legit. But where can we lepak HAHAS. Well my house is a great lepak spot but. We cant always come to my house sia. 😅 DUDEEEEE. HOWWWWWW. But yeah, went out on a monday today yay. Though you very poor thing la book out yest book in today HAHAS.
But today damn chill only~
Went to Saizeriya at Farrer Park just for lunch, then walk walk arnd there for awhile, doing nth actually. Then we came to hougang. Went to get some stuff and headed to the library and met Grace. 😂 Sorry I was awkward will do better next time HAHAS. Just weird. I felt weird. Its like as though she stumbled upon a secret HAHAS. 😂 Then we headed to my house. I told you the best lepak place is in hougang already rightttt. HAHAS. Nah, played with the kitty for awhile then chillax for awhile then you zao home aldr. Yeah pretty much for today. (Did I ever tell you how good you smell sometimes. Is it the soap? HAHAS)

Start text

Y'know we were having this weird conversation about fate and it sorta made me go back to read my old blog, which I stopped updating for a long time already.
Then, I realised something,
I always regret not starting conversations with people,
as in texting.
like without an actual motive.
Like I am not the type of person who will text you just because I want to talk to you.
You get what I mean?
I bet you're like that too. hahas,
like even if im bored, I don't text people.
Then I realise.
I do that to you,
but I don't think its more than being bored, its more like I have some free time and I wanna talk to you.
HAHAS.
AREN'T YOU HONOURED.

South SG

Went to explore further south today. Suntec, Marina Square, Millenia Walk, SG indoor stadium thr and yeah, just a lot of walking and bullshitting. Oh we went thr cos I wanted to find the Koi pond but. Couldnt. :/ But lets finish exploring the south of SG tgt kay, gardens, mbs, dome, barrage, everywhr. hehehe.

Im sorry kinda caught up in my own thoughts these days its kinda. Like those stuff from last week then, you meeting sec school friends after meeting me, I tried to act like idm but, I do la.

I mean you gave me the impression that you're in AJC and in 4 H2 class cos of Wenyi. & Idk how and why and what happened between you and wenyi like, i dont know if i wanna know or not too.

I actually edited this post in June. It was a uhm, damn weird awkward post intially so I just edit lorh. cos this blog is basically, a online scrapbook and an online diary for us marh so. (Please do post, or edit the posts. hemhem, dont lazy) Since I can't actually say these stuff, at most write on paper. Even though I can talk so much HAHAHA. Its only fair to let you know some stuff so. Let's do this.

 

Like thinking back J1 August I still liked this senior cos my birthday card my close friends teasing and all. The thing is cos, the senior I liked was busy w A levels and all then we kinda drifted when he decided not to talk to me suddenly. So I was a bit sad marh, during pw period, & Arif knew about him lorh. Then somehow cos of pw and you taking 72 we got close then Arif, you know Arif. Then the stupid march camp incident. But I just ignored cos like, weird. So I just really 当做没发生 and continue talking to you. I am good at turning awkward things like that unawkward, HAHAS. But cos of that its abit wtf when you confessed in August. Cos Idk, you like suddenly 心血来潮, and I think you actually still liked Wenyi, like not over her yet. So that rejection in August was well, justified in many ways. Studies, unsure, not ready, no faith and all lorh. 给我们彼此一点时间, that's what I thought. Cos it was after that confession then I really start thinking about a relationship with you sia. Stunned me in Aug but if you didnt, I dont think I ever will consider relationships cos I just cant imagine, being in a relationship with anyone. Maybe cos I can get close to guys and I dont ever think much of my guy friends. Like IDK HOW TO SAY LA. Plus, rationally, logically, I should find a boyfriend in uni.

But yeah. Just glad that 我没有错过你,

"Don't regret the chances you missed" Sounds familiar? HAHAS. It was the quote you wrote at the back of your helmet for BMT field camp. Was that why you confessed in August. -eyes suspiciously-

 

So HAHAS, ohkay I edited this post after this convo.

& you wonder where I get all my weird thoughts from. Well you are kinda a huge step out of my comfort zone, idk a relationship is a daunting scary thing. I am not.. the type who likes to depend on people so. But somehow that regretting thing came by and. that when I decided that we should give it a shot and conquer NS. HAHAS.

AHHHH IM LIKE CONFESSING SO MUCH AHHHH. NOW I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE GIVING YOU THIS BLOG. 

Avengers - Age of Ultron

WEEEEEEE MOVIE. We ate Sushi Express (again) and watched movie, at Seletar Mall.

We were supposed to be like, meeting at 10 but you, woke up at 10. I thought it was like, karma cos I like always late for our dates. HAHAS.

But recently I have been thinking, and the thoughts in my head aren't exactly, well positive. I realised I have always been pessimistic, and it seems like as though its to prepare myself for worst case scenarios. So that when bad things happen, it wont come off as too much of a shock and I can handle it with more, grace and dignity. Im pretty prideful. As you can tell.

Y'know cos you're like only coming out on weekends I feel like Im bothering you. Idk that feeling is kinda strong.. Cos you have friends to go out with, game with, and of course your gramps. In fact stronger after what has happened today it feels like as though going out every week is too much of a sacrifice? Yeah I admit even I feel burdened. So I guess its even worse for you. Like the only time I will enjoy myself is when Im with you and when Im not and I think about like, our relationship, it really didnt seem that great at all.

Im sorry for having these thoughts and going home right after the movie cos I needed time to sort myself out. (but hahas great movie) I cant even look at you properly today, cos I am having these dark thoughts. If I can sort these out myself, then yeah I wont tell you all these. But if I can't, I don't know if I can or not bring myself to say this to you. Im scared of what will happenen if I do. Really.

When am I even gonna show you this, damned, blog.
But after we text again everything seems to be.. back to normal. Sighs. Idk man. Maybe its just another of my moodswings.

19 April 2015

Hi I wore your cap from msia back to SG HAHAHAS. 

So yeah HARPEE BURFDAIII

Hmmmm, I didnt pass you the thingys on friday cos i screwed up the cards.. hahas. you see the pic you'll see some different cards manz. hahas. but yeah. I forgot to take pic of the final pressie dayummm. So just for recollection purposes. Got this fossil watch and this bracelet and this cap and this embarrassing set of cards. HAHAS. 
So on your bday morn 7am I called you but you this pig sleeping. HAHAS. so yeah. Waited for you to wake up omg. And decided to meet at around 11+? At Wendy's. You choose Wendy's over Rivervale why. WHYYY. Somehow Wendy's was renovating ohmygod. And we decided to go to Riviera KFC  (after much of my whining) so you open your pressie there lorh. Except for the cards cos too embarrassing I cannot. HAHAS. Thats pretty much about it. Oh then this major love confession just once. I can imagine how much you debated before you sent that text HAHAHAS.  Love you too. This is too funny to not screen shot and tease you. :P 

Ion Sky ✔

You're rightt.
Its freaking boring when we go out tgt. But yeahs. Hahas. We still do.
Anyways.
Today went to City Square Mall Seoul Garden for yeah buffetttt. YEAH MEATTTT.
then walked arnd a bit, to Mustafa Centre to walk a lil. then headed down to Orchard for Ion Sky. We finally. Finally. FINALLY. made it. Hahas. Youre right. We do need somewhr we can lepak and slack at. 😅
Without all that walking.

Henderson Wave Bridge ✔

A super damn long day out.
Crazy.
But I love my sundays like that. 🙆
So yeah.

First we went to YOUR Haw Par Villa. To yeah see all those legends and stuff. Well not bad. Hahahas. The 十八层地狱 was interesting. And random tales and sagas. 😅
Then, we headed westwards to Jurong East, to explore jcube jem westgate and bigbox. Quite cool manz. HAHAHAS. Got this ice skating competition held then wooots. LUCKEY. I find it cool but you. HAHAHA.

Then, went back to Buona Vista, to take bus to Mt Faber, for the Henderson Wave Bridge. Its quite a sight. & its cool hiking there. HAHAS. should finish the whole trail someday. MacRitchie too. HMMMMM. & after crossing the bridge i had this mad idea to walk to habourfront. Went up to Faber Peak, then walked to vivo. Sorry not sorry. & you had this sudden craving for xms 版面 so yeah. Went back to hougang but we ended up eating at Ave 8. HAHAHAS.
THEN, you having supper w jh/ter so pei you till like 8:50 at like 我家楼下. (when you were meeting them at 8:45 ahems)
(OH YOU WERE LATE MEETING ME TODAY AHAHAHA)
(THO I WAS LATE AND THE TIMING JUST NICE BUT)
(YOU WERE LATE. 😅)
(IM SAYING LIKE ITS A GOOD THING LOLOL ITS NOT.)
But anyways thats all for today.
Must be damn tiring for you uh HAHAHAS. CYA NEXT FRIDAY SOMEONE'S BURFDAY ISH COMING