Crybabies

Hello,
so uhm 2 days ago, saturday, I met you in the afternoon. We had lunch together at hougang mall manhattan's cos I finally can hobble around a little. But yeah the thing is, it felt really weird and awkz cos we didnt say much. And there were some things on my mind, which I can't bring myself to say it.
Then I don't know what came over me, but I just really needed to get the load off me. It was difficult to bear. So I asked you to come over at night after your reunion w your famz at home, and you did. Really thankful for that talk that night - at least I know I actually do hold some form of importance in your life, even though you this lazy bitch couldn't care less about making me feel so. I really didnt expect you to cry like, at all. I mean I was afraid we'd break up just like that but I guess you were too, after thinking about what you said. Don't say you don't remember. Cos deep down you know you do. HAHA. I believe you aren't as bochap as you'd like to think you are. Even though lazy really is not a legit answer.. But I guess your lack of effort in planning things for me is annoying not cos I dont get shit. Its just cos I don't feel important enough for you to put in effort. So yeah I guess I don't really mind not getting/doing all that typical couplish stuff. Just need to know you still do care yeah. But I guess its kinda hard if there is no effort cos it feels like.. I am not important. So.. HAHA. I guess you need to find some other ways to show your love? HAHA.
And, I dont believe you are that emotion-less. I mean you regret not attending occasional meetups with friends, and that makes you not cold at all. I just hope I won't ever become one of those regrets you have.
But I guess its my fault too.? If I did a better job as a girlfriend maybe you'd be more inclined to be a better boyfriend too. I don't know.